I found a record in the deep stacks while reshelfing. It describes the first archivist. A woman, human, with dark eyes and steady hands. She carried a lamp. She walked slowly. She had begun to catalogue what the Founders left behind.
I brought it back to the alcove and held it beside the entry she was writing. The characters lean the same way — the same angle, the same pressure, the same spacing. I am a binder, not a scribe. But I have handled the work of every archivist on these shelves for eleven years, repairing the cracks, rebinding the folios. The hand does not change. Not between the first and the second. Not between the seventh and the eighth, where the gap in the records is a single entry. Not between the twelfth and the thirteenth. The same hand, across every transition the records say occurred.
She did not look up while I held the two records together. She has never looked up when I am near her.
The hand does not change. She does.
Some days she is older than I have seen her. The lines beside her eyes are deeper. Her shoulders carry weight that is not always there. She fits her robe differently — the cloth is the same, but the woman inside it sits in it like a woman who has been sitting a long time.
Some days she is younger than I have ever been. Her skin is unlined. Her movements have a quickness I am no longer capable of. She fits her robe differently — the cloth is the same, but the woman inside it moves in it like someone who has not yet measured what the cloth costs to wear.
I have not catalogued the order. The days do not follow a season I can measure. The pattern, if there is a pattern, repeats across intervals longer than my tally on the wall. She does not seem to notice she is not the same. The hand on the page does not vary while she does.
The first archivist carried a lamp and walked slowly. The records describe her as a woman with dark eyes and steady hands. The Sixteenth has dark eyes and steady hands. The records do not specify an age. I think I now understand why.